The Last Week of May and Selfishness
The Memorial Day weekend is about to pass...... It has been a fairly low key one.
Saturday, I traveled with dad to the Medina / Wayne County cemetery tour.... It was very low key.... I sort of misbehaved when I got back to Bryan. I was frustrated, because on the way home he revealed that he had a past commander's banquet at 7:00 p.m. We pulled into the drive at 7:05..... There were many opportunities to have him home comfortably by 5:30..... but we walked cemeteries and I took some photos to log on find a grave.... and... then about 10 miles east of Mansfield, he revealed his banquet to me...... I hammered it home.... but... not in time.....
I stayed a little while and set up the flowers for him at Brown Cemetery.... and he bought for everyone.... on Mom's side except for Uncle Donald and Aunt Belle..... I don't quite get the logic of all that.... but... it shouldn't matter. If he wants to do it... I should be supportive, not a jerk like I was.... Absolutely no excuses. I was out of bounds....
He has asked me to drive him to his eye surgery on Thursday. I will have to miss school for the first time in about eight and a half years... All because she is "afraid" to drive in Fort Wayne. I know that it sounds incredibly selfish..... but... why? Why can't it be two days later..... I could take him literally anywhere on planet earth 48 hours later.... no discussion allowed about reschedule..... or if I have anything.... I just am so angry that he is busting my streak..... But... I know it is selfish.... of me to even second guess...... but... I will go on record as saying he is every bit if not more selfish.... I know that logic doesn't make it right..... but deep down... it is how I feel about it.
I am feeling sort of miserable tonight.... I am certain that it may have something to do with the rotten weather today.... a cold steady drizzle.... It is sort of how I feel inside...
Good bye this week to May..... June is arriving Saturday.
Saturday, I traveled with dad to the Medina / Wayne County cemetery tour.... It was very low key.... I sort of misbehaved when I got back to Bryan. I was frustrated, because on the way home he revealed that he had a past commander's banquet at 7:00 p.m. We pulled into the drive at 7:05..... There were many opportunities to have him home comfortably by 5:30..... but we walked cemeteries and I took some photos to log on find a grave.... and... then about 10 miles east of Mansfield, he revealed his banquet to me...... I hammered it home.... but... not in time.....
I stayed a little while and set up the flowers for him at Brown Cemetery.... and he bought for everyone.... on Mom's side except for Uncle Donald and Aunt Belle..... I don't quite get the logic of all that.... but... it shouldn't matter. If he wants to do it... I should be supportive, not a jerk like I was.... Absolutely no excuses. I was out of bounds....
He has asked me to drive him to his eye surgery on Thursday. I will have to miss school for the first time in about eight and a half years... All because she is "afraid" to drive in Fort Wayne. I know that it sounds incredibly selfish..... but... why? Why can't it be two days later..... I could take him literally anywhere on planet earth 48 hours later.... no discussion allowed about reschedule..... or if I have anything.... I just am so angry that he is busting my streak..... But... I know it is selfish.... of me to even second guess...... but... I will go on record as saying he is every bit if not more selfish.... I know that logic doesn't make it right..... but deep down... it is how I feel about it.
I am feeling sort of miserable tonight.... I am certain that it may have something to do with the rotten weather today.... a cold steady drizzle.... It is sort of how I feel inside...
Good bye this week to May..... June is arriving Saturday.
posted by cpc at 9:05 PM
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